Readers� Theatre for 9/11/01

�A Last Victim�

What just happened?

What is going on?

I was sitting by my desk writing up that darn article.

Suddenly I find myself in this foggy bright place.

Where am I?

Am I dreaming?  Is this a dream?

Ok. I�m waking up now.

I�m going to be late for work.

I have to submit that article on �gardening�

by noon time.  (Pause)

Where am I?

I see ambulances. Fire trucks.

It�s dusty in here.

Ugh! Ugh! Ugh! Ugh!  (Pause)

What time is it?

I ought to pick up my daughter by 6 p.m.

I can�t forget this time.

No.  Not again.

Why, Sharon?

Why is she being taken to the hospital?

What happened to her face?

Her arms?  Where are they?!

Oh no.

I need a mirror.

I was just in my office.

Now it is not there, anymore.   (Itzel)

 

Mommy said I didn�t have to go to school

today, which usually excites me.

I hated my teacher and still hadn�t made

many friends at my new school in the

Bronx.

She said we�d be going out for some

ice cream but looked sad, really sad.

I thought it must be something on the

TV she had been watching all morning.

We went to Baskin Robbins and I

got two scoops of my favorite

flavor, Rocky Road.

We sat down and Mommy went really quiet

for a while and just stared at me.

She was crying but I still didn�t know why.

Then she finally came out and said, �Daddy

wouldn�t be coming home from work.�  (Kyle)

 

I hate math.  I hate this teacher.

When are we going to move on to language arts?

That�s my favorite part of class because I�m in the

highest reading group!!  Ouuuhhh the phone!

I wonder who�s calling? Wait why does my teacher

look so shocked?   What was that

word she just said?  Hijacking?  What�s going on?

Is that fear on her face?  Something really

bad must be happening because Ms. Boylin�s

facial expression never changes.  I hate this

class.                            (Harmoni)

 

My mom got me up that morning

just like any other morning.

I went downstairs to fine her

at the television.

Some buildings were on fire.

My mother looked concerned.

But I was more concerned

with why the TV

was on at all.

When I went to school

my third grade teacher

asked the class for

a moment of silence

for all the people in the Twin Towers.

I didn�t know what she meant.

I didn�t know for a long time.

Maybe I will never really know.  (Tim)

 

The playground loomed especially that day

when I overheard a 5th grader

mutter to another

�Did you hear?  Somebody

ran a plane right through some towers

in New York!�

 

What a story!  I thought –

but the teacher tears I noticed

when I got to class were real –

the words crept

into my heart

and never left

 

I felt the smoke

fill my soul

as we were told the tragic tale.  (Raven)

 

My alarm clock screamed at me to get out of bed.

I sat up, dazing off as my body slowly started

moving towards the bathroom.  It was

quiet.  It was never supposed to be this quiet.

My mother wasn�t yelling at my

sisters and me to hurry.  My aunts and

uncles weren�t slamming doors as they

rushed to get ready for work.  I looked

at my sisters still sleeping as they

tried to get a few more minutes of

dreams and I waited. and waited.  Waited

for my mother to come barging through

the door screaming, �Come on get up!

Get dressed!  We�re going to be late!�

Ten minutes passed and the only thing

I heard was silence.  I opened

the bedroom door and headed for the

kitchen.  I expected to be greeted by

the smell of eggs or beans but instead

I was greeted by a note on the

refrigerator door that read: �Had to

leave early.  Have fun at school. Lunch

on table.� signed Mama y Tios.

I looked at the table and saw no lunch.

My mother must have forgotten, and I

knew then that today was going to

be a bad day.     (Adilene)

 

I�ll never forget that day; it felt like

everything changed.  I was 18 and I was awakened

by a phone call from my friend

 

�My ��! We�re being attacked.�

Half awake I reply, �What�s going on?�

In a giddy excited way my friend says, �Dawg, they�re dropping

bombs and shit all over America.�

 

�What?� I reply.

�Planes are falling from the sky, and bombs are being

dropped in D.C.�

�Come thru.  We�ll smoke a blunt, and watch this shit!�

 

Brand new soldier at DFAC sees the plane crashing

on the TV

�It�s fucking on!�        (Charles)

 

What is that shown through the glass?

Is that me or is that you?

Am I seeing remnants of flesh or an idea?

Whatever it may be,

it has its purpose.

Not just a purpose but many.

This and that, me and you

all reflect on this.

This idea put into flesh

so everyone can see it through

whichever glass is in front of them.      (Cameron)

 

The TV in the library broadcasted the news.

I watched from half a world away.

safe.

I saw the smoke.  I heard the screams.

America was falling.

America, the great nation. The land of hope, prosperity

and dreams for the people of a third world country

like the one I was currently in.

America, the home I longed to return to.

What is happening?     (Kathleen)

 

It is my turn to get pushed on the swings

when the loud speaker calls me to the office.

Daddy is there waiting. He says it�s time to go

home.  I try telling Daddy, but it�s my turn

to plan on the swings.  He just ignores me,

and the office lady says, �I understand sir.� 

He holds my hand and squeezes it tight.

He leads me to the car.  I stomp my feet and pout.

Daddy is being unfair.  He doesn�t talk about why

he�s pulling me out of school today.  �Daddy, can I go

back to school?�  �No,�: he says. I watch Dad lean

against the backyard door and pull out a cigarette.

He lights it and blows on it.  He gets another call.

�Yeah � on the news � I saw the plane.  Yes �

she�s here � safe.�

Dad blows again and tilts and with smoke coming

out to the sky.  There are two cigarettes facing

up side by side still clouding the sky gray.         (Mariah)

 

(My 4th grade self)

Today is the day I get to sit with Beker

he wears a green lab coat, has orange hair, and

a red nose and tells the class that I�m the leader,

But when I walk into class something

changes

Mr. Gilbert rushes his fourth graders to

Mrs. West�s class.  We sit in front of the TV.

I watch their faces, Mr. Gilbert�s and Mrs. West�s

they look shocked, horrified.  They say, �This

is happening in New York.�  I wonder, �how

far is New York from San Jose?�

I finally look at the TV.

The plane.

The smoke.  The fire.

Then the other tower has a

plane and smoke and fire.

I look at Mr. Gilbert, his hand over his

mouth and his eyes glued to the set.

If he�s scared, I want to go home.

I need to know there is a home.           (Tracy)

 

As the TV plays loudly in the classroom the

most distinct voice is that kid Carey as he

runs around the classroom with a mask that

he just made while watching the news

speak about the burning buildings.  Carey starts

making gremlin-like noises – and yells, �I�m a terrorists.�

Mrs. Near is no longer the soft-spoken

teacher we knew.  Mrs. Near is now the drill

sergeant.  She yells, �Carey, you�re suspended.� The class

snaps silent.  It should be silent.           (Benjamin)

 

I remember not understanding

the television was never on

not ever in the mornings—

but my cereal was the same so I

decided not to be scared.

 

I remember my father shaking

I remember no one explaining

 

My breakfast selections have long since changed

I still don�t understand.            (Kate)

 

I didn�t know why my mom

was crying that morning.

I poured my cereal and sat

down on the floor in front of

the TV when I saw the black

smoke rising from these towers.

Was the movie really that

sad?  When I saw the red-

headed news lady I thought, the

airplane, the fire, the crash

all must be real.  �There�s been

an accident,� she said packing

my brothers and me into the car.

I overheard her on the phone,

apparently her cousin was in

New York, wherever that was.

Had the plane hit him too?      (Sofia)

 

No one had ever sat me down and told me what darkness looked like

I guess I was too na�ve

too used to days on the placid playground and

sharing warm smiles under the sun.

My mother�s hand cradled mine, walking home

that day

That eruption of sound, booming through my ears

rattling in my head.  I felt my mother�s hand slipping from my grasp

and collapsing my blissful vision.  In tandem to the tower

the plume of debris climbing, reaching up as if

it were reaching for God, reaching for an answer, asking why.

It spread higher, wider – blotting out the sun,

blotting out the light.

That day I saw firsthand what darkness looked like.     (Anthony)

 

Woke up to watch the news.

Wanted to catch the weather.

Then I saw what I saw.

Mom came in.  Went to school. Things

got quiet after that. 

Then came the hate and rage.  (Sukhber)

 

I walked into the living room to remind

Mama she had to take me to school.

She was just standing there.  Frozen. Standing

there looking at the TV.  I think she might

have been crying.  I looked at the TV

and didn�t understand what I was seeing.

Was Mama watching a movie?  She usually

doesn�t watch movies in the morning.

I can tell something

is wrong.  I left the living

room; I didn�t want to watch that movie

with Mama.  It looked scary.  She shouldn�t

have been watching something that scary

in the morning.

                        (Nicole)

 

As I am looking down, 80 stories above

everybody, I know I am going to die.

I don�t know what has happened, but

all I know is that I�m stuck on

the 80th floor with no way out.  I

walk towards a busted window

and look down.  How am I going

to jump?  Or should I just jump

into the flames now?  I�ll jump.           (Monica)

 

I wake up to the sound

of my mother calling me.

�Come out here,� she yells

and I hurry to the living room.

My mother is on the phone

with my dad

her eyes wide as she stares

into the TV screen,

two buildings collapsing.

We are being attacked she tells me.

We are being attacked, I think.

We are being attacked,

and I shiver and watch the TV screen

and think this is not how America

is supposed to be.         (Vanessa)

I didn�t have a cell phone in September of 2001

I was living and teaching at Western Carolina University;

the Smoky Mountains of rural western NC

made cell phone towers unlikely.

 

I didn�t have a cell phone but as I

watched hours and hours of the grief

replayed,

heard those last word messages recorded

on cell phones,

heard the words �let�s roll� from those

brave passengers on the flight that crashed

in a Pennsylvania field,

I knew I needed to get a cell phone

If I were on a plane taken by hijackers,

on a plane flying into the Towers,

if I knew I would be dying,

I would want to make calls;

I would want to say, �I love you

� thank you�  (Dr. Warner)

 

I was in middle school.  I was getting

ready for the day.  As usual the television with the

morning news was on.  Although,

this particular morning both

my parents were watching with an

unfamiliar energy.  My mom was sitting and

my dad was standing.  I asked

about what was going on.

They uttered something about planes in

New York, flying into buildings, had been

hijacked.  I walked away ignorant to the

importance of this event.

The TVs were on in every

class that day.  Teachers barely said anything.

Everyone was just watching.  I remember

seeing people jumping from buildings.  My

stomach churned.         (Lily)

 

(sixth grade English teacher, San Jose, CA)

As I sat in front of my class

trying to explain to 30 sixth graders

what had happened in New York this morning

as they consumed their bowls of sugary cereal,

I could tell they couldn�t grasp the complexity

of the situation.

I wasn�t even sure they were paying attention

until I dropped the word �terrorists�

and the snickering and the finger pointing began.

I knew at that very moment the only

message they would get from my morning�s lecture

was that in America it is okay to point the finger.                   (Brittany)

 

The morning was red like fire

in New York, but here in San Jose

it was casual with yellow sunlight

and I woke up, nine years old,

and saw the tower smoking

for a moment, and heard

my parents fearing was and a draft

like Nicaragua had, like my father suffered

in the seventies.

but I was not afraid,

I was certain in the sunlight

But the smoke from the towers

and the dust of their falling

was slowly consuming the sun.  (Emmanuel)

 

(from the perspective of a World Trade Center employee)

�Beep Beep Beep Beep

How many sick days do I have left?

I don�t think I�ve used any.

Man, I don�t want to get up.

I had way too much to drink

last night.

Should I call out

and nurse this hangover?

No, I have too much to do.

Maybe a long shower

will cure the throbbing.

 

I�m tired

of this crowded subway.

I should�ve called in sick.

Why is this woman yelling in my ear?

I should have called in sick.

 

My only comfort is

my desk chair

Maybe today won�t be so bad after all.

What was that!

Last time the ground shook

that hard,

I was in San Francisco

some years back.

 

What�s that smell?

Why�s it getting dark?

Oh no!

Quick!

Get out!

I should�ve called in sick�       (Elle)

 

Gradually the voice of the newscaster grew

louder and louder.

I opened up one eye and saw my dad sitting on my

bed with a cup of coffee, watching the news.

He felt my stare and looked back and said,

�Look at what those crazy assholes did!�

I didn�t look.  I was wondering why my dad

was still here and not at work.

My dad babbled on about news all of the

time so

I paid no attention.

I rubbed my eyes to take the eye boogers out

and stared at the screen with hesitation.

Once my vision cleared I saw buildings collapse,

I saw people running, I saw smoke, I saw fire, I saw fear

For the first time in my life,

I saw war.         (Jorge)

 

I didn�t understand.

My dad was always up early.

But my mom?

It was dark outside.  She never

gets up before the sun.

She looked scared.

So did my dad.

My dad is tough.

I didn�t understand.

I stood behind the Lay-Z-Boy,

watching the TV.

Smoke and fire, people screaming.

New York City.

Everyone was scared.

I didn�t understand.

It was just a plane and a building.

I didn�t understand.

On TV, we watched

as another plane collided with the second tower.

The building collapsed in front of our eyes.

I decided to go to school that day.

We watched the news, there, too.

I was just starting 6th grade.

I didn�t understand

much of anything.

 

I understand now.

But do I really?                        (Stephanie)

 

Bad things happen in the world sometimes,

so I�ve been told.

But what do I know?

I am too young for the disillusionment to set in.

This news report means nothing to me other than

a few people dead.

Or a lot, but what�s the difference?

Numbers hold no weight to me.

So, teacher, what do you expect I�ll learn from watching this?

I can�t tell you what it�s like to die in a plane crash.

I can�t say what it�s like to transition from daily duties to death.

I can�t relate to losing the people I love most so abruptly.

I can�t imagine being assigned to such an attack, believing I am saving the world.

I can�t pretend to have been on the level of the politician

forced to explain to the masses, to take accountability, or to shift blame.

I can�t fathom the numbers.

And twelve years later, I still won�t.

But I will be able to tell you, truthfully, that depravity exists in this world.      (Danny)

 

(perspective of a fireman)

Not enough men to help, how can we?

what can we do�  I want to say nothing,

but I want to do something.

Don�t jump, please don�t jump.

We�re coming.  We�re coming to save you.     (Juan)

 

I heard my mother, fin the other room cry, �oh God�

as I tried to get my hair perfect for my 8th grade picture day.

Her voice sounded so helpless.  So unlike her.

My brother and I went into the living room to check on her.

Her hand was over her mouth.

She was kneeling on the floor, her eyes glued to the TV.

I looked at the screen and I knew.

I knew this was bad.

�Come here, you guys,� she pleaded to us.

We kneeled next to her on either side.

Held hands.

And prayed.     (Stevi)

 

I can�t hear myself think.

Sirens are blaring.

People are screaming.

I can�t see

through the dust and smoke.

The emergency responder volunteer card

is so much useless plastic

burning a hole in my pocket.

Through tears and coughs I struggle

towards the light

amidst the crowds.

I stop as people brush by.

Fear gnaws at my gut,

but I can�t go yet.

I turn around and run back

up the stairs.

My friends are still up there.    (Brett)

 

I step onto the bus

and am transported.

Transported

to the cries of a previously unknown land

back east.

The bus chugs around the windy roads,

shifting gears between the words

planes hit � no

planes crashed

The country

shifting fears.

 

This unknown feeling starts bubbling

within me as we weave

in and out of signal

and newscast reports.

The bus steering

in and out of valleys,

collecting a small community of children. 

It has been a long time since this town�s eyes

have shifted beyond

its wooded borders.       (Kirsten)

 

I saw a plane,

a building, smoke,

crumbling�

I wake up.

 

I�m already late.

I run to school.

 

The classroom is silent.

Mrs. Wollerbeeke is standing in

front of the board.

She is speaking in a serious tone.

Something�s wrong.

She writes something on the board.

A writing assignment?  I thought.

Not exactly.

 

She wants us to write a letter

giving our condolences to the families

of people who died in the crash.

 

�What crash?� I thought.

I asked a classmate,

�What�s she mean? �

I didn�t understand.

 

We wrote our letters,

however, I had no idea what to say.

What could I say?

What was I supposed to say?

 

We proceeded to our vocabulary lesson.

�Nonchalant�

new word of the day.

 

When I got home the TV was on.

My parents and sister were watching.

 

�What�s going on?� I asked.

 

�You haven�t heard!

There was a terrorist attack in New York.

It�s all over the news,� my mom said.

 

�Yeah, I heard all about it at school.

Our teacher had us write about it in class.�

 

�Well, it�s serious,� she said.

 

I didn�t know what to say.

What I supposed to feel?

I sat down and saw the smoke,

the plane, and the fire that engulfed the building.

Was this real?

 

My mom seemed on edge.

In response to my complacency, she said bitterly,

�You�re acting so nonchalant.

�Hey, I said proudly.

I learned that word at school today.�

--My mom shook her head indifferently.

 

�She�s too young to understand,� my dad said.

I had no idea what that meant. (Samantha)